SACians as one forever, we've crossed the finishing line together...

gosh

2007-01-23T22:34:00.000-08:00

it's been soo long... too long so this is just gonna be a short post.

sec sch is lotsa fun. lovin it

cant wait for tmrw cuz im sick right now... couldnt go today

shoot

so anyways... ily everyone!! =]

&hugs;;
- anisa

shitzu!!

2006-12-17T07:48:00.000-08:00

kiss this life goodbye... or...
7
7
here i lie on my death bed
revisiting the past for what seems to be the last time
i won't be seeing the sun rise and set
it's beautiful rays shine
lighting the earth
7
i shed a tear
then another
the faces of my family staring down on me
my vision's blurred
i can hear my niece's whispers
"daddy, is grandpa gone?"
silence is all there is
my life is almost done
7
in those few final seconds
i asked myself
did i live life to the fullest?
did i live life to satisfaction?
too lethargic
couldn't hold on any longer
i'll never forget everyone's affection
7
someone grabs my hand
holds it tight
i force my eyelids open
and i stare into my daughter's beautiful eyes
7
"dad, don't leave us, not now... please"
but i couldn't speak
my mouth wouldn't budge
but at least
i managed a "goodbye" and "i love you everyone"
my world turned pitch dark
the rest of the journey wouldn't be fun
7
my soul left my body
i gazed at my family
they were crying
i wanted to cry too
but no tears would fall
and i remembered suddenly
i was a ghost
after all
"stupid me"
7
just as i was starting my journey
to the afterlife
something grabbed me
pulling me down
it was a light
shining ever so bright
bringing me back to my lifeless body
telling me it wasn't my time to leave yet
7
i awoke
the faces surrounding me lit up with glee
hugs and kisses were passed all around
i question
how could this be?
7
all i know now
is that a miracle just happened
and now i'm utterly convinced
that God is truly one-of-a-kind
God is the one and only
he made my life rewind
all over again
7
i was given another chance
now i'm not going to waste it
i'm not going to make the mistakes i made before
not this time
i'll keep one foot out of the door
always ready to come back...
7
7
7
nisa
===
cherish your life
dear person
you never know
when it's time

tired out

2006-12-12T08:30:00.000-08:00

i learnt a new word!! thanks Laura!!

steaming... ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahah... *shut up anisa!!*
okay whatever... new word. cant tell you what it is... ehehehehehehehehehehe so if you know shhh... keep it zip
=]
*
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*
nisa
===
die b!tch
DIE!!

psst...

2006-12-10T04:08:00.000-08:00

*thinking of an appropriate title but got sick and tired so gave up on it*
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orange
purple
red
pink
brown
yellow
indigo
heliotrope
gold
magenta
lilac
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psst let me tell you a secret
between nobody but you and me
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i'm being stupid
x-x
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nisa
===
stupidity isn't
the end
of the world

you didn't say goodbye...

2006-12-09T23:20:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry i didn't say goodbye...

i left you forever mummy

without any last words to say

i can feel your heart still frozen stiff

since that fateful and tragic day

now i'm telling you what i would have done

if i was ever given the chance

i would have said goodbye to everyone

or at least have one last glance

it seems that destiny has decided my fate

that i am the one to go

my death came so unexpectedly

must have been awful when you had to know

on my behalf could you please tell daddy

that i love him more than the world

tell him that i'll forever be

his own "Daddy's Little Girl"

then, tell big brother that i'll love him forever

cause he's the one who's been there for me

he's defended me when i faced the music

how much he means to me; no one can see

let little sister know that i love her more than she thought

and that i'm sorry if i've treated her badly

she's the only one left to make her dreams reality

but i can't be with her now; sadly

tell all aunts and uncles and cousins

that i'll miss their warmth so much

they were the backbone supporting me everywhere

i'll never forget their loving touch

finally, please let grandma know

that she's the one i fully look up to

i'll love her for eternity and more

without her what would i ever do?

grandpa wants to clearly state

that he'll take care of me here up above

grandma; he misses you ever so much

he can't seem to measure for you his love

up here in the land of beauty and wonder

grandpa and i will be waiting for you

not only you, mummy, but for all the others too

we'll greet everyone with arms open; that's true

i'm sorry mummy once again

that i didn't manage to say goodbye

how i wish time would stand still for me

so you didn't have to break down and cry

this is my final message to you

i'm trying my best not to shed a tear

i just want you and everyone to know

no matter how long it takes i'll be waiting right here...

***

nisa

===

crying her

eyes out

gone

2006-12-09T03:43:00.001-08:00

christmas is cancelled
*
woke up
in the middle of the night
the air smelt different
somebody turned off the lights
it's that time of year
yet again
but nothing will change
i'll still feel the pain
santa won't come
you won't be there
all alone
that's all i'll be
slowly dying
can't you see?
no love
no hate
so what feelings are there to hold?
look around
the room's bare
i'm feeling cold
the walls
white-washed
not the colours of festivity
they're closing in on me
my hands are shaking
won't you hold them tight
make it stop?
no answer
the rain starts falling
drop by drop
yet another day passes by
i still can't seem to fly
to another place
another life
another time
without all this strife
saviour come to my rescue
i'm yearning for you
you still don't come
could this be true?
it finally arrives
wonderful christmas you've come
but why do i still feel sad?
why do i still feel glum?
i stand alone
under the mistletoe
though it's days of sheer bliss
i'll have no one at all
no one to kiss...
*
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*
nisa
===
a sad sad
christmas

gone

2006-12-09T03:43:00.000-08:00

my mind's fucked up

2006-12-08T10:33:00.001-08:00

this mind is fxcked-up...

i can't even think straight

every single thing i think now is about you

just you

yeah you

nobody else

cause there's something about you

this special aura

engulfing me in it's wrath

i can't seem to break free

no this isn't a stupid poem

i got no time for that right now

no time for anything else

except you

can't you see

it's a cold world out there

colder than you think

but only one person keeps me warm

yeah

you know who it is

shut up

don't act foolish for once

can't the world just keep mum for a moment

to let me think this through

why do i keep thinking of you?

there's so many others out there

something's up

i think it's my mind

trying to play tricks on me

yeah

my mind is fxcked-up

why do i hallucinate?

dream?

aspire?

reach out?

for air

cause there's nothing

nothing there at all

it's just bare

no chances to take

no promises to make

i'm wasting my time

obsessing over you

i'm stressing more

tensions are high

but i know i can't live without this

i've gotten accustomed to it

so how am i to let go?

you tell me what i should do

or why did i even start obsessing over you

don't say a word

hush now

keep still

this world's not big enough for the both of us

so i've sacrificed my life

i'm going

leaving

you're not shedding a tear of remorse

for what you've turned me into

leave this life

and everything that beholds it

for you i'd do that

would you do the same for me?

no...

guessed so

thanks a lot

for helping me out

though it didn't do anything

but turn my life into dust

so i'm saying goodbye

you've finally turned 'round

but it's too late

i'm long gone

maybe you should have cried faster

next time

or will there even be

a next time...

nisa

===

you filth

turned me into this

MONSTER

dear headache, SCREW YOU!!

2006-12-07T23:38:00.000-08:00

Dear Headache...
SCREW YOU!! (^_^)
*
woke up today
my head felt heavy
mom said
wake up you sleepy-head
time to get out of bed
what were you doing last night?
I said
there was nothing in the fridge
went out to get a bite
mom sighs
probably disappointed in me
as you may know
I lied about going out
as with everything else I've lied about
the truth is
I stayed up till late
and this isn't the only day
guess I sticked with my plans
to have everything my way
but in the end
I got this annoying headache
I guess
it was stupid of me to sleep at 3 in the morning
so to put an end to this unecessary yawning
I'll be a good girl
go to sleep at ten instead
no more worrying
and thinking of what's a head
wait...
*
what
is
a
head?...
***
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*
AHAHAHAHAHA okay it's done... AHAHAHAHA... I dunno I'll just keep laughing all day. AND if you're asking, NO that "a head" thingy wasn't a typing error. =]]]
you're welcome
you're just jealous
and have a good shat...

it's that little one's birthday...

2006-12-07T23:11:00.000-08:00

It's that little one's birthday...
*
Hey everybody!! Yepp yepp today's my little baby brother (Adil)'s birthday! Just turned 2.
*
Yeah it's the Terrible Two again... Guess I'll be able to handle him better after lots of grueling experience from keeping an eye on my sister. Haha
XPPP
*
Oh no, the doorbell just rang. For real. And I'm wondering who it is but I'm not going to answer it. Being evil, as always haha.
*
So today I have an imense headache. Feeling drowsy. Going to write a poem on that ahahahahahahah... Yeah.... No seriously... For real!! Okay fine don't believe me then just so you see stupid conscience... SCREW YOU!!
*
Ahh Christmas is coming!! Go listen to Yule Shoot Your Eye Out by Fall Out Boy now!! =]]]]
It's fkcing amazing... I <3>
=]]]
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<33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333.......>
*
That was random.
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That too...
*
Okay so, I hope this headache goes away and doesn't turn into a migrane which is the least thing I want on someone's birthday...
*
Maybe I should stop forcing myself to sleep at 3am everyday... Maybe... But I won't stop =P
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Okay everyone!! Have fun today and enjoy life!! You never know when Death come's up to you and says "Ready, you might go, you never know how..."
=DDD
*
Nisa
Merry Christmas,
I could care less...
that's him...

v

kiss him, kiss him...

2006-12-07T00:45:00.000-08:00

what are you waiting for, kiss her, kiss her - Fall Out Boy

Yeah!! Tomorrow's my baby brother's big day. Haha. I'm still bored. Can't wait for school to start again. I'm still thinking of what to write for the Christmas poem... Urgh can't think. Music's too loud. XP

Wow. I didn't really know this but this purple and that orange go really well together. Cool. Random. Hey Laura, if you're reading this. Cause only you and me understand randomness well. AHAHAHA

XPPPP
*

Ok I think I got an idea on the poem. Don't laugh at me if it's stupid or whatever hahaha. BE posting it up once I've finished. Maybe tomorrow. Right now I want to go to sleep again. Stayed up till 6am watching Manchester United face-off with Benfica. AND MAN U WON!! Woopee so feeling ecsthatic about that. Lol.

Was it Santa or Mrs. Claus who laid an egg??... Oh well let me go check.

Ok ok ok enough of that. Now I'm off to do lots of thinking on why Fall Out Boy's so amazing. Bye!!

Nisa

fobsessed for life!!

lalala lyrical thoughts...

2006-12-06T00:17:00.000-08:00

the ribbon on my wrist says "do not open before Christmas" - Fall Out Boy

Hey everybody... it's been quite awhile since i posted my last entry. I hope you're all feeling fine and doing good. Especially if you're a Primary 6 student, we gotta move on but we're in this together. After this year, I wanna see you guys smiling cause we're starting our life anew!! =D

So, the decision has been made. Here are my choices of secondary schools.

1. Tanjong Katong Girl's School (237+)

2. Cedar Girl's School (246+)

3. Crescent Girl's School (241+)

4. Tanjong Katong Secondary (236+)

5. Ngee Ann Secondary (238+)

6. Temasek Secondary (234+)

I hope I get into TKGS. Haha, it's my dream school after all. Oh by the way, I got 253. YEAHOOO I BEAT MY BIG BROTHER OH YEA UH-HUH!! He got 234... ehehehehe.

It's been boring. Very boring. Cause all I've had to do is stay at home and use my gismos and gadgets all over and over again. Everyday, not to mention. So I'm finally saying this after 10 years of schooling, I want to go back to school NOW!! I can't wait till it starts. Then I'll be occupied and soon it'll be the "O" Levels!! Yeepee.. =D

I've been listening to lots of sad songs these days. I'm not too sure why. But I got this AMAZING sad song called Do You Remember. Yeah, I posted the lyrics 2 entries before this one. It's really sad... If you want the song and others go to www.purevolume.com/thesummerobsession. Other of my favourite songs from TSO are Melt The Sugar and Death Said. =D

Jingle bells, jingle bells, Santa laid an egg... Yeah he did really. I got proof... :rolleyes:

Randomness rules me...

So that's it I guess for this entry. Maybe I'll write a Christmas poem or something. Haha. oh and just so you know, my little baby brother - Adil- is turning 2 years old this Friday, 8th December. You'd better wish him a Happy Birthday or he'll squish his half-eaten soggy-woggy brown-spotted banana in your face. LOL, XP. Nah just kidding. But seriously please do haha. Okay then, have a great day ahead and don't do drugs!!

=]]]]]]

Nisa.

The Click Five clicks ass!!

xX...Friends Forever...Xx

2006-11-23T22:47:00.000-08:00

This isn't goodbye and it never will be, remember that. Keep those sweet memories alive in you for eternity. WE'RE FRIENDS FOREVER...

and so we talked all night about the rest of our lives

where we're gonna be when we turn 25

i keep thinking times will never change

keep on thinking things will always be the same

but when we leave this year we won't be coming back

no more hanging out cos we're on a different track

and if you got something that you need to say

you better say it right now cos you don't have another day

cos we're moving on and we can't slow down

these memories are playing like a film without sound

and i keep thinking of that night in June

i didn't know much of love but it came too soon

and there was me and you

and then we got real blue

stay at home talking on the telephone

we'd get so excited

and we'd get so scared

laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair

and this is how it feels...

as we go on

we remember

all the times we

had together

and as our lives change

come whatever

we will still be

Friends Forever

so if we get the big jobs and we make the big money

when we look back now

will our jokes still be funny?

will we still remember everything we learned in school?

still be trying to break every single rule

will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?

can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?

i keep i keep thinking that it's not goodbye

keep on thinking it's a time to fly

and this is how it feels

as we go on

we remember

all the times we

had together

and as our lives change

come whatever

we will still be

Friends Forever

(la la la la la la la la)

(la la la la la la la laa)

(yeah yeah)

we will still be friends forever

will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

can we survive it out there?

can we make it somehow?

i guess i thought that this would never end

and suddenly it's like we're women and men

will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

will these memories fade when i leave this town

i keep i keep thinking that it's not goodbye

keep on thinking it's a time to fly

as we go on

we remember

all the times we

had together

and as our lives change

come whatever

we will still be

Friend Forever

as we go on

we remember

all the times we

had together

and as our lives change

come whatever

we will still be

Friends Forever

as we go on

we remember

all the times

we had together

and as our lives change

come whatever

we will still be

Friends Forever...

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- Graduation (Friends Forever)

by Vitamin C

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School is *officially out...

2006-11-21T00:09:00.000-08:00

something's waiting for you around the corner it's true; death said you might go, you never know... - The Summer Obsession

don't need no cash

we can make a dash

(hit the street)

it's always been

it's always been you and me

baby it's cool

you suck at school

(anyway)

so pack it up

let's run away

run away

i know them bruises ain't from falling down

they seem to show when your drunk dad's around

we can go whenever you let go

whenever you let go...

do you remember

we said we'd run

away together

holding on to one another

i'll steal the car

steal the credit cards

and run forever

holding on to one another

this is the day

and tonight i'll be there

you know the time

don't be scared

get all your cd's

get all your posters

get what you need from their wallets and their purses

i know them bruises ain't from falling down

they seem to show when your drunk dad's around

we can go whenever you let go

whenever you let go

do you remember

we said we'd run

away together

holding on to one another

i'll steal the car

steal the credit cards

and run forever

holding on to one another

and when we're all alone

with no one there to bother

(tell the truth)

i'll treat you like a queen

forget about your father

there's no means that justify

you're living your whole life in pain

i know them bruises ain't from falling down

they seem to show when your drunk dad's around

we can go whenever you let go

whenever you let go

do you remember

we said we'd run

away together

holding on to one another

i'll steal the car

steal the credit cards

and run forever

holding on to one another

do you remember?

(i'm here to save you from falling down)

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- Do You Remember

by The Summer Obsession

step.up & the.grudge.2

2006-11-14T00:59:00.000-08:00

Let's melt the sugar under the meteor shower...- The Summer Obsession

yepp yepp i did watch Step Up and The Grudge 2 yesterday. and i'm telling you, if you wanna watch the grudge 2, bring a pillow along AND plennnnnnty of popcorn. no no no, the popcorn's not for you to eat... it's for you to toss and crush at the awesome insanely scary parts haha. but seriosuly... do bring a pillow along at least. and dont say i didnt warn you... =]

Step Up is my most favourite dance movie of all time!! it's so amazing and Channing Tatum can seriosuly f*cking dance!! the girl and him just look soooooo sweet together lol. Step Up is a must-watch movie and i highlyyyyy recommend it to everyone. at the end of the movie, you'll be in full dance&booty-shaking gear mode. wakakakakas!!

and i rate it 100000000/10 (i know that's not possible lol)

the grudge 2 is insanely fantastically horrifying!! watch it if you dare cos the girl will haunt you....... nah just kidding lol. but it's an aweosme movie that's not bad. AND i strictly state that it's not at all boring. (this message is for those who think it wasnt entertaining)

watch it!! and i rate it 9.7/10 =]

ok that's all for today... i'm pretty tired haha. been out hari-rayaing (yeah you may ask "still?!") and been doing the freakin script which is freakin long and i dont have the frekain time to do it cos my freakin brother keeps using the freakin computer all the freakin time!! bahahaha...

till we meet again everyone!! B)

New blogskin!! woop dee doo!!

2006-11-07T23:36:00.000-08:00

Every little pat on the shoulder for attention fails to mention I still hate you...- Fall Out Boy

Yo wassup everybody!! Haha. So yerp looks like I've changed my blogskin finally. I'm lovin it ofcourse cos the words you see at the top of the page is from a Fall Out Boy song called "Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner". Definitely that song is already added to this page haha! It's track number 5, just so you know lol.

So, nothing much has been going on lately. Only that I'm freakin excited cos our Thanks Giving school play is coming real soon. It's really funny and pretty childish but I find it awesome. However, I'm so sorry it's not open to the public. *manymanymanysorries*

BUT!! I got wonderful news. On the 8th and 9th of December, my friends - Nicky, Laury and Nessy- and I will be organising a school fund-raising play entitled "Real". This event will be held at the back of the Hall OR in the Dance Room (4th floor). Tickets will be sold at $4 per head. No parents are allowed as it is not a big-scale event. On the 8th, friends from St. Anthony's Canossian Primary School ONLY will be allowed to attend. On the 9th, friends from outside of school will be allowed to attend. Sounds exciting?? Ofcourse it is. Cos you may not know this but only 4 Pri.6 pupils will be organising this f*cking event and it's just goddamn stressful. So you'd better come all right?!!! Or we'll haunt you for the rest of your life, you hear me?? Wakakakakakas... just joking!

P.S. BUT!! I wasn't joking about the "it's just goddamn stressful" part.

We would really appreciate it if you could come and support us. It's for a good cause anyway cos all of the money from the sale of tickets will be contributed to our school's effort in it's building fund.

So that's all for now folks!! Be yourself all the time. Never lie to yourself cos that's the worst that could happen. Remember... everything comes with a price.

a BIG one...

emo...nuff said

2006-10-18T21:28:00.000-07:00

Create Your Own!

PSLE is over!!!

2006-10-15T18:56:00.000-07:00

BREAKING HEARTS HAS NEVER LOOKED SO COOL...- Fall Out Boy

Hello everyone!!! it's been so long since i posted an entry...sorry cos i had to be in major studying mode for PSLE. but now it's over!!! say say say yaphoo!!! finally...

anyways i'll tell you how i celebrated the completion of PSLE. my sistas and i - Laura, Vanessa and Nicole - went out to watch the movie "World Trade Center" last thursday. damn it was a hell of a good time...haha. but on the day before, wednesday, we went over to Laura's crib. went over to...to...to...i forgot our objective but it was something good. but good turned to goof. oh yeah! we were supposed to choreograph the dance for the dance-a-thon thingy at the end of this year. we hadnt decided what song to use but soon, after contemplating on rich girl (gwen stefani) and buttons (pussycat dolls), we chose buttons!!! need an explanation? i thought so...

Buttons = sexy

= bitchy

= hottt

= awesome

= fun

= nonsensical

= silly

= butt-cracking goof balls

= Me & Laura & Vanessa & Nicole xP

got it? yeah!!! it all points down to us so that's why it's perfect. anyways, after we chose the song we choreographed the dance. haha it was pretty funny. and erotic. im only gonna give you a slight preview cos i dont wanna ruin the whole thingy for us (which includes you). it starts off with... lil nessy (vanessa duh) coming out from the curtain at the back of the stage. note: not from the side curtains, we wanted something improvised. after nessy, i come out followed by laury and nicky. note: our entrance is according to increasing height. and here's the MOST EXCITING PART...

when we come out, we're all dressed in black tank-tops. me and nicky have red streaked hair and nessy and laury have purple streaked hair (bahahaha! cool). AND we're all gonna wear a sweater each. then when the singing starts, we'll strip off the sweater (ooh la la LOL) and start the dance. it's pretty cool. come down and watch us and the other performers!!! you'll help raise funds anyway so it's for a good cause.

ok so i'll stop at there. it's a sneak preview so if it sounds exciting come on down!!! damn...i sound like an advertiser on replay all over and over again...freakin annoying.

okay now moving on to thursday. OMIGAWD thursday was like the bestest best outing i've ever done with my sistas!!! we kicked it off by going over to laury's crib (again). then we changed and did our gurly-gurl stuffs like make-up and hair. and we were off to meet Josh aka Duckay. =D i cant really tell you why we call him duckay...it's a VERY long story haha!!!

after laury's crib we headed for tanah merah mrt station. then we got past the gate and went up to the platform. and when laury called josh to ask where he was, GUESS WHAT??? he was at the same sation as us!!! bahaha! so all the hustle and bustle started. josh was carrying his violin. very cool (NOT gay vessy). you wont believe what vanessa said about him and his violin. im not telling cos she may get in trouble haha. and laury...omigawd laury...she was the one who didnt recognise josh when he was moving up the escalator. WAKAKAS!!! the surprising part - she's the one who's closest to duckay than all of us.

then me and nessy went up to josh. before that laury dared me nicky and nessy to go up to him an say "quack quack quack". then nicky chickened out (jackass). but me and nessy did it and josh was like "what? huh? *long pause* OH!!! yeah quack quack quack..." mwahahaha!!! silly billys we were then...and now

then in the train we were terribly freakin HIGH. josh said "you guys are very high" and i misheard him for saying "high" as "hard". so i answered him, "what's that?" then...the laughter cracked up...hehe. but seriously we were damn high. all of us. but it was good.

then we alighted, got lost in the middle of orchard (but josh became the saviour of the day?...well he did direct us out of confusion, wakakas). i learnt a few japanese words from josh too which i'm planning to use on nicky. she might think she stopped josh from teaching me how to say shut up and stuff in japanese, but oh no she didnt. oh no she didnt... *evil grin*

after finding our way to cineleisure, we met up with laury's cousin sam. nicky loves sam (nuff said...she seriously does. sam i hope you're reading this. there's a potential wife right here for you. nicky, you can kill me anytime you want for posting this up =D) and we bought the tix for the movie. when we were on the escalator up to the cinema, laury whipped out her "in advance" birthday present to josh. (dont worry it wasnt a duck ^_^) it was a cute lil sheep and boy did she SOAK it in her perfume hehe. it smelt awesome and josh was all smiles like this ---> =D =D =D =D =D =D

when we were about to go into the cinema, the staff at the counter told josh that he coudltn bring his violin in (i dont know exactly why). so josh had to say farewell to his poor violin for a while...*sobs* ok enough of that.

the movie was sad yeah...me and nicky cried our eyes out!!! mwahahaha...dont laugh! grrrrr...

after the movie we were all lost again but josh (yet again) directed us and with a little bit of our own knowledge, we were outta there!!! but unfortunately we got home late and my vanilla coke was gassed-up so much it spilt all over the platform and a lil went onto my white sweater. dont worry it's not stained. i shouldnt have opened it then....sheesh...

thank you once again to laury and her mum for sending me back home!!! i wouldnt have made it home by 7.30pm if it wasnt for them...and yeah my mom was furious. by then it was too late to break my fast with my family. and im only 12 so it IS a big deal, in case you're wondering... o_O

nicky and nessy got home, didnt get scolding. we were all happy. it was the least we expected coming home freakin late on a school day...bahaha!!! but it was all an amazing experience and an awesome lesson to learn....

"NEVER OPEN A COKE BOTTLE OF ANY FLAVOUR ON ANY MRT PLATFORM. YOU'LL REGRET IT..."

(^_^)

see ya everyone!!! keep having nightmares of me!!!

Happy belated birthday, cereal killer1...

2006-09-22T04:24:00.000-07:00

Our gossip lips stuttered every word I said, I said...- Fall Out Boy

So, happy belated birthday my brother!!! No seriously, if you're reading this, i'm really wishing my actual Brother (Alif from Sleeq) a happy belated birthday cos it was actually on 21st September which was yesterday. SORRY BROTHER!!! I totally forgot about it yesterday cos of all the homework and projects and stuff. PSLE is in 12 days anyway. So it's really pressurising...haha. =D

I just wanna know that you are the hilarious-glue that keeps this family stuck tight together. I'll never forget what you've thought me and the jokes you've told me. I can laugh my a$$ off over and over again hearing even the same joke. You really mean alot to me, Aisha, Adil, Mama, Papa, and grandmoms and grandpas etc. =P

Keep things going strong and NEVER EVER GIVE UP YOUR DREAMS!!! And never extinguish that amazing fire that keeps burning to keep us going. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING THE BEST BROTHER IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!! We love you to bits...you can be sure of that. lol

S-L to the double E-Q... Sleeq forever and for ALWAYS!!! LONG LiVE SLeeQ!!! =)

W(hy)EDNESDAY

2006-09-19T22:42:00.000-07:00

AND YOU ARE NOT GOING HOME ALONE, CAUSE I DON'T DO TOO WELL ON MY OWN...- Fall Out Boy

Hey hey hey! So today's Wednesday and there's supposed to be Higher Mother Tongue but sh!t...it was cancelled... : '(

I'm seriously sad AND happy too cos...

1) I'm sad cos i love HMT and i get to laugh my a$$ off with Nawirah and Iffa for an hour. It's just so freakin fun!!!

2) I'm happy cos i'll have more time to finish my homework and work my mom gave me yesterday.

But let's just forget about that...cos today there's something so "important" that's gonna take place later after i come home from P(ontianak)IANO. Some A(nnoying)WSOME bunch of reporters will be coming over to interview my mom and dad on how we keep our family so close even though mother and father may be working lots and there's lotsa children. So i guess after that, i can just go do my own thang and revise. But seriously, you may think it's a big thing but i find it annoying. WHY DID THEY HAVE TO CHOOSE OUR FAMILY??? Aiya i'm better off using that time to do some other worthwhile things. But i'm really irritatted with my mom cos she's gonna make me play the piano for the cameraman while they take pictures of us as a family listening to me play...SHiiiiiiT!!! I don't wanna do it!!!

But i guess i have no choice. I'll disappoint my mom anyway but it's my life and i wanna live it my way! But she's not letting me...(i guess).

OH YEAH!!! I almost forgot. Today the most scariest and freakiest thing happened in mdm koh's class. A fooging HORNET flew into the class during lesson and kept coming closer and closer to us! So ,we were definitely scared and screaming for our lives until mdm koh had to yell at us to "SHUT UP!".

Haha! But it was all fun. Finally the hornet got out and we could all breathe easy again. xP... maybe i should learn to not freak out so easily. But i bet Melissa was really afraid and trying to mask it cos she has a phobia of creepy-crawlees. AHAHAHA!!! But i gotta admit...i was pretty damn scared too! Hehe...

Okay so till next time! I'll be by your bedside everynight, waiting for the right time to draw my blood-glisteing knife... = D... G'byeeee!

and oh yea this stupid thing can't load the Fall Out Boy pic again... so don't mind

Okay okay so I was WRONG...

2006-09-17T06:58:00.000-07:00

I KEEP TELLING MYSELF, I KEEP TELLING MYSELF I'M NOT THE DESPERATE TYPE...- Fall Out Boy

Hey hey hey okay so maybe i was wrong about my family not going out today...shoot man we got out EVERY sunday! I'm so stupid...but hopefully ya'll like the "The Music Or The Misery" lyrics by Fall Out Boy on the first page. :D. You know how much i love Fall Out Boy... i mean just take a look at the lyrics. Aren't they awesome? They just leave a lasting impact on me so i'm not really sure what it'll do to you...

Anywayz...my whole family is outside watching the Chelsea vs. Liverpool match...SHiT!!! Chelsea are currently 1-0 up...don't give up Liverpool!!! LIVE ON!!! Don't let those mothafunguses win this match!!! I hate Chelsea...no offence to any Chelsea fans though if i have... sorry! =]

Haha...aiyah but at least my Manchester United are still at the top of the Premiership table. All matches won and my dear Cristiano Ronaldo is at his hottest... xP. Hehe and i love that guy too... so anywayz... have a good night filled with nightmares of me and your worst fears haunting you!!! Bye...

S-S-Sizzling Sunday...

2006-09-16T21:57:00.000-07:00

TO THE LOVE, I LEFT MY CONSCIENCE PRESSED, THROUGH THE KEYHOLE AND I WATCHED YOU DRESS, KISS AND TELL...- Fall Out Boy

Ahaha so today is Sunday...so that means the next day is dreadful Monday..awww shoot that awful Monday blues again. GAWD i'm about to have tuition with my mom and my neighbour. It's pretty cool cos it's free... :D Hey it IS my mom you know...anywayz, i hope we dont' go out anywhere to day cos i'm in no mood. And yeah one reason is cos i haven't finished doing my homework. I'm lazy ya'll know that...so have a wonderfully dark and eerie Sunday & Monday! Bye...

Sorry!!! Bloop bloop blooper...

2006-09-16T04:29:00.000-07:00

MY BAD!!! THE BLOGSKIN HAS BEEN CHANGED AND PLEASE TAG ME!!! :D BYEEEEE FOR TODAY

2006-09-16T02:48:00.000-07:00

HOW COME EVERYTIME YOU COME AROUND MY LONDON, LONDON BRIDGE, WANNA GO DOWN?...- Fergie

OMG...what the f*ck happened? The...the...omfgzzz...the blogskin is not changed yet??? But i thought it was yesterday? DAMN it's weird. Aiyah eff it...anywayz, i just got home from my religious class. Today's lesson was surprisingly fun cos for the first part of the 3 hours, we did our usual work. Paper work. Not that bad cos we got to refer to our books for references. Then the second part was kinda my favourite. We were playing a quiz. An IQ quiz to test our knowledge on Islam. Ofcourse, even though there were only 3 people in the girls team, we STILL won as we always do. To the boys: SUCKERRR!!! :P

Then came the last part. GOD it was scary. We were exchanging ghost stories with our teacher and her's were the scariest. I can't bear to tell you guys cos i'm scared you might get freaked. Like how i am right now!!! *shivers*

So yeah that was my Saturday...gonna listen to Fall Out Boy now to ease my stress instead of slitting my wrists again...Bye!

And anywayz, i seriously LOVE this Fall Out Boy picture...hehe cos Joe Trohman looks so innocent. And you know you like his eyes, Nicole (I HATE YOU!!! xP)...

Finally...thx so much Iffa! You've gone FURTHER than the end of the world!!!

2006-09-15T04:14:00.000-07:00

EVERY TIME IT RAINS, IT RAINS PENNIES FROM HEAVEN...BE SURE THAT YOU UMBRELLA IS UPSIDE-DOWN...- Arthur Johnston

Yeepee!!! So a million thx to Iffa Hashim for assisting me in changing my blog skin! I couldn't have done it cos i'm too stupid to do so... xP

Thx a million gazillion nonillion again Iffa!!! WE'VE GONE TO THE END OF THE WORLD...nonono FURTHER THAN THE END OF THE WORLD!!! :D

F-F-F(ree)DAY

2006-09-14T21:53:00.000-07:00

SO WEAR ME LIKE A LOCKET AROUND YOUR THROAT, I'LL WEIGH YOU DOWN, I'LL WATCH YOU CHOKE...- Fall Out Boy

*sigh* FINALLY PSLE Listening Comprehension is over...and the worst part is i think i lost one bloody freakin mark. It was a last minute decision so i guess i was in a hurry. But it was for malay!!! How could i even think of getting it wrong??? Unbelievable...i'm stupid, dumb, fickle...aiya why can't i just stop. Anywayz, i found the malay one the toughest...damn hard!!! I couldn't even understand what the question was trying to impose! I'm gonna get slaughtered and hung from the window by my mom...literally... :P

So i guess i just gotta be more careful and learn from my lesson. And Nicole was so irritating today...grrr she kept beating me so hard!!! And we discussed and compared the slits on our wrists :D. It was fun but i hope i'm able to control myself next time. So i won't do it again...yeah i seriously hope i can. Cos the stupid (and funny) thing is, i ALWAYS regret slitting my wrists after slitting them. God "stupid" is indeed my middle name...you know what? Make that my WHOLE name...Hrumph...PSLE papers start in 18 days and i'm still so relaxed...GRRR WHY CAN'T I JUST BE MORE SERIOUS???!!! It's ironic cos i have to go to RGS and it's a MUST...well i'll try my best. If not it'll be TKGS followed by Cedar Girls' then that Singapore School Of Arts or whatever it's called. I just hope my mom's satisfied. And i don't wanna tell her how the LC was today cos i wanna make her scared and suspensed...hehe. I mean that's what my brother did. But in the end it wasn't such a good thing cos he didn't live up to my mom's expectations. But now he's a complete GENIUS and i'm so jEaLoUs of him...but you know, i gotta learn...

And that learning started a long time ago...i just gotta learn MORE than i already do...but how???............... o__O"

and i can't effing post up a Fall Out Boy pic for this one...so just blame the system not me aight? Hehe... xP

PSLE Listening Comprehension...-__-"

2006-09-14T02:05:00.000-07:00

LET'S GET THESE TEEN HEARTS BEATING *FASTER FASTER*...- Panic! At The Disco

GOD how could i forget about this...i guess it's the Click Five forum to blame lol... but anywayz, PSLE LC is tomorrow and i'm feeling nervous (as usual). And i'm also having tuition with my mom today but i don't wanna cos i just wanna relax to not stress myself up for tomorrow. HOW??? Aiya i guess for today i'll just have to suffer cos i got to escape from piano yesterday!!! (my piano teacher was called back for reservist [sp?] :D). So ofcourse because of that i feel happy. And my back is really hurting i dunno why and i STILL dunno how to work this blog thing...for real...i know i'm stupid just utterly stupid. o_O <--- like that? Yeah i know...

And today is the Singapore Idol results day to see who will make it to the finals!!! I predict Hay Mirza (OFCOURSE) and Jon. Jasmine can go out cos she wasn't that spectacular last night. Her voice was so-so lah, not that amazing but she's like the next Olinda. Speaking of that, i wonder when Olinda's gonna release her album...hmmm it's been two years you know...anywayz, Hady will definitely be my idol even if Jon wins. I'm not too sure if they'll let Hady win also cos you know...Taufik won last year? Get it? Taufik's malay... Hady's malay? Get it? Yeah great you got it... but i just hope they're not biased... *bits lip*

I hope Hady will win. If he makes it through this round to the finals i'll still be very happy. But ofcourse i would like to see him win lah! Okay this is getting SOOO Singlish. LOL!!! xP

Till then........... GOOD LUCK TO YOU IF YOUR SITTING FOR THE PSLE LC LIKE ME!!! :D

Slit your wrist...and smile...

2006-09-13T23:23:00.000-07:00

WE ARE THE SALT, AND YOU ARE THE WOUND...- Fall Out Boy

............................o_O.................................

Okay...so today...yeah, i regret doing it but at least i feel better now. I slit my wrist (as you can see by the title). Actually not WRIST, it's WRISTS. Mhmmm both but it doesn't matter. I'm used to it whenever i'm just so stressed. I mean it's not like i'm the ONLY one who does this right? Other people around the world do it too...and when i say othersss i mean thousandsss and thousandsss more. I'm just one meer human being on the effing face of the Earth. Just one stupid one who's lost her mind cos PSLE is *OFFICIALLY* 19 days away -__-". It's a fever i can't sweat out (hehe Panic! At The Disco<333)>

But like i've been saying, it's aight. Just don't get on my nerves so much that's all. And ofcourse i do need my time alone without anything but loud emo-punk music to just let out all my anger. But today i was stupid and i let it out in a different way...but hey it was during mdm koh's lesson!!! And i think she saw me slitting my wrists...hmmm...i dunno you be the judge. Hopefully she doesn't call my mom or i'll be in even bigger trouble cos my mom has counselled me through this before when i was in primary 3 or 4. Yeah life's tough and it's definitely not fair. You just gotta live through it and learn to adjust cos it'll never adjust itself for you. Everyday's a challenge and it just keeps getting tougher and tougher each day when finally, it all points down to that one decision you make that's gonna end all those pressurising challenges...and when you make that decision, just do it right , think it through and don't get wasted. Remember that, aight? Cool...

W-W-Wednesday...tizzle

2006-09-13T00:44:00.000-07:00

I JUST WANNA BREAK YOU DOWN SO BADLY, IN THE WORST WAY...- Taking Back Sunday

Okay...so i just got home from higher mother tongue and i'm feeling tired. Ofcourse if i'm tired, i won't wanna go to piano class...but i have to o_O...so i'm pissed about that and i'm also pissed that i can't change my blogskin and i don't know how to...... -__-". But you see, since PSLE is around 20 days away, my mom doesn't want me to be on the internet when it's about 2 weeks from PSLE...SHiiiiT!!! Rules rules and MORE freakin rules...why can't they all just stay away? But i guess when it's after PSLE i can do whatever i wanna do...whether it's clowning around, going to THE END OF THE WORLD [if your Iffa or Nawirah, you know where i'm hitting at ;)]. But i wanna get back and just forget about all that PSLE crap for now. Okay as i was saying...i'm gonna have piano lessons soon and i don't wanna but i have to ONLY if my piano teacher lets me play Pop songs not effing Classical pieces which i loathe so much. I wanna play Dance, Dance by Fall Out Boy, I Write Sins Not Tragedies by Panic! At The Disco, Unfaithful by Rihanna...so many things i wanna play but things just don't seem to go my way these days...it's been everyone else's...but okay maybe except for the time when my mom made me a Milo Dinosaur yesterday =]. But it's been stressed-up and effed-up. I can't wait till PSLE is over but that's easier said than done...i'll just have to be patient for a little while longer [my ass lah a little while longer...it seems like an ETERNITY] and pray that everything will be aight...till then, hopefully you'll see me alive and jumping, not on the floor with my head in a pool of blood and a gun in my hand... xD

FALL OUT BOY & THE CLICK FIVE & PANIC! AT THE DISCO

Slot the bullet in the gun, cock it and pull it to your head...BANG!!!

2006-09-12T03:03:00.000-07:00

OR IS IT GOD WHO CHOKES IN THESE SITUATIONS?- Panic! At The Disco

I am freaking angry cos... THE SCRIPT AND POWERPOINT FOR THE PREFECTS' COMMITTEE THINGY HAS BEEN DELETED!!! SHiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiT!!! Aiya but it's aight about the powerpoint cos it's the effing script that matters! *sigh*... poor Cristall Anne had to write out the script. But i'm not blaming Laura for deleting it (cos she's the script-writer). It's just an accident...woosa... accidents do happen... just gotta stay calm. And i just hope Mdm Rahat doesn't kill me and the others if we aren't able to finish with the presentation by this week... pray for ma that i don't die! xD

T-T-Tuesday... sniff

2006-09-12T00:46:00.000-07:00

LOOSE LIPS SINK SHIPS... - Fall Out Boy

God, i'm feeling shagged... luckily Melissa (and her mom) were awesome in letting me ride home in their car. Or else i would have died on the way cos of the immense heat. *SIZZLE*

Anywayz, i just found out something... The Click Five forum layout has been CHANGED!!! YAHOOOO!!! xP

DAMN i've been waiting for it to change cos you know, after awhile you can get tired of somethings that you see everyday. But it's all good...PSLE countdown is 23 days by the way. Yeah stressful but you don't know what kinda stress i'm going through. If your somebody who knows me and your reading this, i'm totally different and less...how should i say this... less lunatic-maniac crazy as i am in school? Yepp that's right... cos of my mom. She wanna wanna wanna me to go to Raffles Girls' Sec but i SERIOUSLY WANNA WANNA WANNA go to Tanjong Katong Girls' Sec. I don't know how to tell her cos it's her dream for me to go to RGS... but it's my dream and i wanna live it... live it MY WAY... ;)

My first ever blog!!!

2006-09-10T23:32:00.000-07:00

Hey! Okay so well...this is my first ever blog and i guess what initiated me to create it was Cikgu Nurbaya.

But it's totally not her fault. It's meant to be in a good way. She told us a story about Blogs & stuff and racists remarks made on blogs. Besides, i'm too lazy to write in my diary or journal :P.

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SACians as one forever, we've crossed the finishing line together...

gosh

shitzu!!

tired out

psst...

you didn't say goodbye...

gone

gone

my mind's fucked up

dear headache, SCREW YOU!!

it's that little one's birthday...

kiss him, kiss him...

lalala lyrical thoughts...

xX...Friends Forever...Xx

School is *officially out...

step.up & the.grudge.2

New blogskin!! woop dee doo!!

emo...nuff said

PSLE is over!!!

Happy belated birthday, cereal killer1...

W(hy)EDNESDAY

Okay okay so I was WRONG...

S-S-Sizzling Sunday...

Sorry!!! Bloop bloop blooper...

Finally...thx so much Iffa! You've gone FURTHER than the end of the world!!!

F-F-F(ree)DAY

PSLE Listening Comprehension...-__-"

Slit your wrist...and smile...

W-W-Wednesday...*tizzle*

Slot the bullet in the gun, cock it and pull it to your head...BANG!!!

T-T-Tuesday... *sniff*

My first ever blog!!!

W-W-Wednesday...tizzle

T-T-Tuesday... sniff